So. I’m adjusting to my “New Normal?” How about my “New Abnormal?” I flew all over the place last month. Seemed like I’d never touch down again, I’d only light on a branch, and only that for a moment. […]

I think I must be getting good at finding ways to celebrate holidays, birthdays, and anniversaries without my Buddy. I’ve let balloons tied with notes loose into the atmosphere, and…well, I’ve let a lot of balloons go… (There have been others things, but I can’t for the life of me think of them now). But […]

I just recently told a friend (in an impassioned way) that I didn’t want my old life anymore. My old life, is the life I’ve lived since my Buddy died, and that’s a life that has been full of grief and pain. My previous life doesn’t exist anyway. I return back to my house in […]

On June 26, we (over 600 people, and I) descended upon Capitol Hill to show our muscles, and push for the Pancreatic Cancer Research and Education Act. And we are doing great! We have the support of over 275 representatives, that’s almost 2/3 of the house! But while we have tremendous support, it doesn’t guarantee […]

And here I am, once again, sitting on a plane that whizzes me back to LA. And since early yesterday, I’ve been feeling what I call “Re-Entry Anxiety,” the phenomenon where all my heat shields burn off as I re-enter the atmosphere of my “real life” again, the one where my Buddy no longer lives, […]

Dear Friends, On June 25th and 26th, hundreds of supporters from across the country will gather in Washington, D.C., to participate in the sixth annual Pancreatic Cancer Advocacy Day. I will be attending this empowering event with them to strongly encourage Congress to pass the Pancreatic Cancer Research & Education Act (S. 362/H.R. 733) before […]

Let’s see… Two weeks ago, I woke up depressed and full of self-loathing, thinking about how I can’t seem to get my life together, and how I’m pitifully paralyzed when I am attempting any task. Seriously. Something that should take me seconds to do would take minutes, and minutes would take hours. Yes, I have […]

Okay. To tell the truth, I’ve been in such a major funk these past three months and I haven’t wanted to write about it too much. It’s been a different kind of grief and feeling bad, as terrible as it’s ever been because this one has had the element of hopelessness thrown into it. And […]

  A few days ago, I was having a lovely lunch overlooking the harbor in Marblehead, Massachusetts, and I had to admit, I’d been totally charmed by this city’s narrow winding streets with American flags hanging over green, crisp gardens in front of wood-sided homes. Not to let me down, the local paper, The Salem […]