Archives for 2012

I’m thinking that I should talk about the holidays, but what I’m more interested in is – the Mayan Calendar, and the fact that this 5,125 year-old calendar has just come to an end!   There are people that thought the world might come to an end as this ancient calendar finished. And I have […]

There are times I am feeling soooo good, I’m thinking – I’m so over it!!! So over the pain, the grief, depression. It’s kinda like I’m that dancing figure online. You know, the one in the advertisement where they just got some great!! financing!!, or something, and the figure repeats the same happy-dance-move over and […]

I took this photo with this guy at Philadelphia’s PURPLESTRIDE, a Walk/Run to fight Pancreatic Cancer, a couple weeks ago. I like to call him – “My Pancreatic Hugger Mugger” Or how about… “My Purple Pancreatic Mugger Brother” Or… “My Mugger From Another Mother”   Actually, my wonderful Mugger Brother carried a sign – “Team […]

As the Willie Nelson song says, I’m “On the road again.” And where am I now? In Austin, Texas for Formula I Race weekend. I keep surprising myself. Seems like I have such a different life from what I had before. Now, wait a minute – I do have a much different life than I […]

                                So. I’m adjusting to my “New Normal?” How about my “New Abnormal?” I flew all over the place last month. Seemed like I’d never touch down again, I’d only light on a branch, and only that for a moment. […]

I think I must be getting good at finding ways to celebrate holidays, birthdays, and anniversaries without my Buddy. I’ve let balloons tied with notes loose into the atmosphere, and…well, I’ve let a lot of balloons go… (There have been others things, but I can’t for the life of me think of them now). But […]

I just recently told a friend (in an impassioned way) that I didn’t want my old life anymore. My old life, is the life I’ve lived since my Buddy died, and that’s a life that has been full of grief and pain. My previous life doesn’t exist anyway. I return back to my house in […]

On June 26, we (over 600 people, and I) descended upon Capitol Hill to show our muscles, and push for the Pancreatic Cancer Research and Education Act. And we are doing great! We have the support of over 275 representatives, that’s almost 2/3 of the house! But while we have tremendous support, it doesn’t guarantee […]

And here I am, once again, sitting on a plane that whizzes me back to LA. And since early yesterday, I’ve been feeling what I call “Re-Entry Anxiety,” the phenomenon where all my heat shields burn off as I re-enter the atmosphere of my “real life” again, the one where my Buddy no longer lives, […]